I really do have a lot to say, but I don't know if any of it will make much sense. I was walking up the killer hill yesterday, sweating bullets,listening to the sounds of the neighborhood, the jingle of Bailey's chain, and smelling the fresh cut lawns around me and I feel as if I'm changing. Like something is happening. Good or bad, I don't know. But something is on the horizon--hopefully good, positive stuff.
I'm tired of negative people. I'm tired of users.
My tooth hurts like hell. I guess it's more of a fake tooth--the temporary crown that Dr. Singer (cuz he sings love songs/rock song lyrics as he works)is rubbing against my tongue and it has inflamed it. Makes me think constantly of Hope and feel awful for even comparing a tongue abrasion for the hell she went through. I can't bring myself to delete her name from my cell phone.
I finally got myself a visit to the dentist. I picked him for three reasons: I liked his name (not Singer, duh) cuz it was weird, his office was very close to my house, and they could take me right away. I went because of a pain I was feeling on that side of my mouth--right where I had the root canal and crown last year. This time it was its friend next to it. Luckily no root canal is needed. They just temp crowned it and I'm waiting for the call to get the "deal sealed." I'm curious to see if the dental tech and the dentist will sing the hits for me again. Very odd experience. He even wiped a tear from my face.(!)
I gotta get better at updating this site and to refrain from telling every single thing on Facebook. And I do believe you know what I mean--some people thought we were totally wrong for laughing at it(the INCIDENT THAT MUST NOT BE NAMED)and maybe they are right. But we are allowed a misstep every now and then, right? I believe so. We are good people but we aren't perfect.
I guess I'm ready for school. I feel so much more ahead of the game this year--I know what kind of kids to expect. Last year was a culture shock to me.
I feel like my writing is very generic. I feel like I'm scared to put stuff out there now.
I feel boring.
At the restaurant in Hayden, AL, where Chris, his parents, the kids, and I ate at today, there was a handwritten sign on the door. It said: "Please do not block the ambulance in with your car."
This left me with many thoughts. Many questions.